Ciku Family, CikuLife

Life goes on but the pain remains

With just a blink of an eye, 10years has flew pass us.

It seemed like it was just yesterday that I was 16weeks pregnant with my first child, lying down on a hospital bedroom floor, waking up every 10mins in the wee hours to make sure my dad was ok.

It seemed like it was just yesterday that all 3 of us, my mum, sister and I kept telling my dad to breathe in and breathe out.

It seemed like it was just yesterday that a group of nurses rushed in and shook their heads, giving us the signal that he won’t make it this time.

It seemed like it was just yesterday my dad’s last words was…”I’m tired. I would like to sleep.”

Closed his eyes and he slipped away….

There’s nothing more painful than losing someone you truly love.

Losing my dad was one of the most painful experience I’ve ever had but it’s also the one experience that has given me so much courage to face the world today.

There will never come a day that I would stop grieving.

But as I grieve, I’ve become a stronger person, a wife, a mother of three, a daughter my mum could depend on, a sister that my sister could turn to, a friend, a teammate that my team could count on.

All of this and more, thanx to all his teachings and being my Daddy for the first 26years of my life.

Still wish you stayed longer and did more than just walk me down the aisle.

Til we meet again, Daddy…

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